Best Friends

Tonight I was thinking about Best Friends. 

Wikipedia definition: Best Friend, someone (singular or plural) with whom one shares the strongest possible kind of friendship.

Aw, Best Friends. I have had a few in my 24 years. As I was sitting here thinking about it realized the greatest friendships with guys. My whole life I've been the girl who was one of the guys. I'm not at all complaining because I like it that way. If I didn't I would change it. I've found that for some reason in my life guys have always made better friends. Most of the girls that I ever called my best friend ended up backstabbing me somehow. Sad but true. I don't know what it is about me that some of my friends have been so quick to back stab me. I think I'm generally a good person with a big heart for others. Yes, I'm a bitch and opinionated like no other but I've never done anything horrible to anyone as far as I know. I've loved, sacrificed and taken so much shit for my friends especially the ones the world like to call best. 

There's this thing about me that one of my current "best friends" thinks is stupid. When we started hanging out and becoming a tad closer as friends I told him to never call me his best friend even if he felt that way. After a short lifetime of losing best friends and feeling the worst pain ever doing so I decided I didn't want to use that phrase anymore. I felt like it was almost a small curse on the friendship itself. I know that sounds stupid but I guess it was my way of protecting the friendship and my fear of losing another special person. I've been using the phrase again though. Part of me thinks he's the one to break the curse. Oh well we shall see. 

I'm not sure where this blog is going but I can't help but think of one of my current best friends and his his relationship with his other best friends. B & D's friendship is one I greatly admire. Sounds funny to admire it I guess but they've been best friends for 14 years. That's a long time. I was friends with one of my best friends for 10 years and after that we proceeded to dislike each other and go our separate ways. I've spent an increasing amount of time with B & D this past year and I love them both to death because they're both really good people. They make me laugh like no other which is one of the things that always grabs me about people. I watch the way they function with each other and although they spend a lot of time fighting with each other I can see how much they mean to each other. It totally makes me happy to know that no matter what happens with these two  guys they will always have each other. Guys are guys and most of the time they don't share feelings especially for each other but these two know each other better than anyone in this whole world will ever know them. It makes me super happy that I've got a chance to know these two guys.

Although I now consider one of them a very close friend even a best friend (Q the scary word) I still have three other best friends. D who can be such a jerk sometimes but love so much. He just has trouble in general showing emotion to anyone but then again he is a dude(haha). He has a great heart and cares about people. He just tends to treat strangers better than the people he loves. I've come to the conclusion that that's just who he is. He's a good person no matter what people think. I love spending time with him. He's honest and fun to be around.

Then there's J who knows me better than any other person on the planet. He knows my secrets and insecurities like no one else does or probably ever will. He's the friend that I will love for the rest of my life but know won't be a part of my life most of the time. He uses this metaphor about a train station, how our individual lives are like a train station and the people that come in and out of our lives are like trains. The more than I think about that I know he will be a train that comes in and out of my life for the rest of my life. At first I hated the idea of this. It made me sad not to have him in my life. I mean it still does make me a little sad but knowing that somewhere out there in this vast world there's someone that loves and cares about me is pretty amazing. 

I don't know what to say anymore but I do LOVE all my friends. I know a lot of amazing people. I feel very blessed to have the greatest people in my life. 

I found some quote online that I like about Friends.

A good friend is a connection to life - a tie to the past, a road to the future, the key to sanity in a totally insane world.  ~Lois Wyse

A friend can tell you things you don't want to tell yourself.  ~Frances Ward Weller


A friend accepts us as we are yet helps us to be what we should.  ~Author Unknown


Friends are relatives you make for yourself.  ~Eustache Deschamps